Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
This year its gonna be different, we going to celebrate this festive with two new members in the family, El, my sister in law and my beautiful niece, Qaseh. I'm glad and proud to be born as Kelantanese. knowing that the celebration there will be as joyful as always, the traditions have never faded. I'd like to share with all of you on how raya actually went for our family..
Malam raya, would be the most awaited moment. On that night alone, most of my uncles and aunties from various states will arrive, and all the couzies will be busy playing with the firecrackers. And malam tu jugak lah, baru la my mom, my aunts, kalut2 nak kemas rumah..nak ambik baju raya from tailor.. hi hi, i miss those moment. and yang paling my mom marah, if on that night itself, me and my cousin mirna baru nak start buat kuih raya. (cornflake madu je, picked the easiest one) kah kah kah. It has always been a trend, that we will sleep close to 5 am on malam raya. biasa lah, bila jumpa all the relatives, kelab ketupat will be officially launched again :p
Next day, the most peaceful morning, each of us would be awaken around approximately 7 am, by the sound of banging on our door. That would be our beloved father,a.ka Tn Haji (;p) waking us up for Solat Hari Raya and the trend has been like that since I was little kid, i guess. hi hi. The advantage would be to those yang uzur, hehe, tak payah siap cepat2..
Our open house will be held on the third day. My mom would prepare her best dish for the open house, and on this particular event itself, i think i can gain more than 2 kgs immediately. scary..ni yang kena ambik herbalife balik ni. and the fourth day would be filled by visiting uncles, relatives's house etc. time ni makan giler banyak lagi..adoiii...
Well, let's see if this routine is gonna be repeated this year. I'll tell you once this week is over, k ;-)
I am actually writing this post in conjuction with reminiscing our late datuk and nenek, my late uncles (dad's side), Muhaimi Abas, Mohd Khairuddin Ab Rahman as well as my late uncle and his wife (mum's side), Azlan Shah Mamat and Siti Hasmah who have left us for the past few years. Your absence in this world are truly felt by all of us. Your soul are still warm in our heart and will always be, especially during this blessed Syawal, and we shall never forget you..May Allah bless you and rest in peace.
To the rest, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, and saya nak mintak maaf banyak2 andai kata ada salah dan silap, humans are not perfect, we can't run away from mistakes. So, 0-0 lah yer ;-)
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
i may have promised some of you to share the pics of my first and foremost cutest creature, my one and only niece thus far, Qaseh Mia Irdeena bt Nazarudin, daugter of my elder sister, Et and her hubby, Naza.
She was born on 12th June 09, 11.02 A.M, 5 days after my birthday. boleh celebrate birthday sama2 :-)
ndek...i miss Qaseh already
above: qaseh with mummy
above: qaseh on the way for injection . cian "acheh" :p
Sunday, September 6, 2009
masa duduk dalam bilik and takde apa nak buat, the only thing that i could do was to watch tv show. luckily tv3 rerun the indonesia movie ayat-ayat cinta. i thought all these while movie ni macam movie biasa, or another boring movie, coz masa tengok last time i watched it in the middle. but i do heard from few friends that it was the best romantic islamic movie by Indonesia.
Saya akui, it is indeed a novel and film which made me realize how close the relationship between humans and the Creator. cukup berlinangan and memberi impak..
Cerita ini buat saya terfikir..bahawa sesungguhnya antara saya - kamu - mereka dan TUHAN yang mengikatnya adalah CINTA. Dan erti sesungguhnya tentang CINTA adalah ikhlas dan sabar.Itu saja.
Bahawa apapun dan bagaimanapun sebuah ketulusan akan diuji. Dan melalui kesabaran hingga pada suatu titik keikhlasan yang datang dari hati - maka seketika segalanya akan dimudahkan oleh Nya.
Berbahas tentang JODOH...
Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap manusia telah ada jodohnya masing-masing. Yang paling menggetarkan adalah di mana ketika kita dihadapkan terhadap dua pilihan untuk harus melepaskan orang yang kita cintai kerana ada hal lain yang lebih penting untuk dipertahankan.. atau merelakan orang yang kita cintai untuk menjadi milik orang lain.
Cinta - tidak semuanya harus saling memiliki. Ketika kita sedar antara cinta dan obsesi sebuah rasa untuk memiliki adalah dua hal yang berbeza maka disanalah ilmu ikhlas dan sabar berperanan penuh.
Semuanya yang berliku kerana di sanalah art of life, sebagaimana kita berserah dan sebagaimana kita memohon pada Yang Maha Esa maka sebegitu jualah yang akan di Beri. Sekali lagi cinta adalah Ikhlas dan sabar. Untuk siapapun itu Sang Pencipta, ibu bapa ,keluarga, sahabat, dan pasangan jiwa.
Saya jatuh cinta dengan ungkapan Maria dan Fahri in that movie...
“Kamu percaya pada jodoh Fahri?”
“Ya, setiap orang memiliki…”
“…jodohnya masing-masing. Itu yang selalu kamu bilang. Aku rasa Sungai Nil dan Mesir, itu jodoh. Senang ya, kalau kita bisa bertemu dengan jodoh yang diberikan Tuhan dari langit.”
“Bukan dari langit Maria, tapi dari hati…dekat sekali.”
such a wonderful script written by the writer and made me think deep...
Sempena Ramadan yang mulia ini, i hope it is not too late for me to apologize to all for any of my wrong doings throughout the years you've known me , which might unintentionally hurt any of you.
Happy blessed Ramadan.. Semoga di bulan yang mulia ini kita dapat mencari keberkatan.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
well the lyrics is so sad ... :-(
Jangan kau menangis sayangku
Harus kau terima perpisahan ini
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Yesterday when I was roaming unnecessarily at the mall, suddenly i just realized i ended up at the kids' toys section. Being there alone, it does reminisces my childhood memories, especially when i stumbled upon looking at wonderful and latest collection of Barbie dolls.
Do you know that i used to be a fan of Barbie dolls? i think this is the only thing i forgot to mention in my old diary :) As far as i remember, i have collected around 30+ barbie, then at the age of 14 years old, i stopped buying it.Probably I have sworn to myself that when the day came, i would stop involving myself with all those kids stuff. Lambat gila kan matured. ha ha ha
I still remember what was it like when we played our dolls. My big sister, Et was not inclined into those stuff, so the only sibling left to play with was Mimie. Mimie has a huge collection of Barbie as me, but knowing her, she hardly took care of the dolls. I kept all my dolls in a cabinet in my parents' room, whilst Mimie put in a big black plastic trash bag .ha ha. no offence ya borak :) So, on one fine evening, my maid, who was happened to tidying up Mimie's room at time, mistakenly thought that the plastic bag contained trash. So she took it, and burnt it, together with other trashes. There goes the full set of Mimie's barbie dolls..sob sob kesiannnnn..:p
So, Mimie had to start collecting again, while i still had mine. While she began collecting, i lent her some of my dolls. When we played, we will have full set of Barbie stuffs, ranging from the clothings, combs, shoes, and not to mention on the furniture sets, living room, dining room, kitchen. We even had a camping set. So there was a time when our Barbie scene getting bored, we set a scene on Barbie & friends went on a camping. :p
kikikiki.. I giggled when I remember how sweet the moment was. Especially when we made a scene where Barbie needs to have a boyfriend. Our problem was, we did not have Ken's dolls. So we just used the 'cheap' Ken and rotate it among the dolls.
Until now, I still keep my first Barbie doll. She was plain and ordinary. She wore pink ruffles dress, and tied hair. her skin was a little bit dark, Chindian barbie maybe :-p
My last barbie doll was Jewel hair mermaid barbie. It was a gift from my mom's friend. and can u imagine, the barbie was still sealed in the box. i haven't unsealed the package. she has the longest hair with gold costume. If you wanna see the picture of it, see below.
I really miss those childhood moments. Well, Barbie is just a part of it. I still keep my Barbie dolls in a proper place. I love all of them, probably its time for me to give away, possibly to my future daughters soon :-)
To my lovely siblings, Keyoe, Et, Mat and Mimie, this post is actually dedicate to all of you. I wanted to tell the whole world how much I miss our childhood times and how much I am blessed have wonderful siblings..;-)
cheers, hugs n kisses,
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
To me, I perceive crying/tears as the other way round.
I admit, i am a woman, who can easily cry. I may look strong outside, but inside, i am fatigue, and weak.
Having said that, I DON'T cry for no absolute reasons.
-I cried when I lost my lovely datuk, nenek and uncles.
-I cried when Papa was admitted to the hospital when I was in secondary school.
-I dropped my tears for happiness or touching moment.
-I cried when I feel sad and really down.
-I dropped my tears if somebody told me that they love me so much.
-I shed my tears when Mummy told me that I'm a good girl and she's proud of me.
-I cried when I got a 58/100('C') marks for my Agama Islam paper when i was Standard 4.
-I shed my tears when thinking on good times and bad times.
-I shed my tears if i did something bad to somebody.
-I cried when I lose people that I love.
-I cried when I feel alone.
-I dropped my tears when i really..really miss somebody.
So folks, don't perceive those who cry are weak. They have reasons when they cry. Why should they waste their tears for no reasons?
and, i am not a drama queen ;-)
Friday, May 8, 2009
Sad but true :-(
Sometimes we must be wondering to ourselves, how fast the time flies .and i'm sure most of you wish that time would actually stop, for whatever reasons that you had in your mind?
Sunday, May 3, 2009
gambar ni masa raya 2008. ada one of my friend tu.cakap gambar saya pakai baju ni nampak macam saya baru lepas telan kambing seekor. isk isk..jahat betul la :-p
saya betul-betul rindu this moment...
Hm..dunno lah lately been talking and posting too much of my baby Arissa. maybe dah kempunan nak ada baby girl kot.Sorry yer~ some more i am expecting my first lil niece this coming June. Hopefully, her birthday will somewhat fall on the same day or near my birthday.
We went for Sunway Pyramid to shop for arissa's bday gift, this was my first time going there after the opening of new wing/block. Such a shame, isnt't it? I memang occassionally je go to that area, this afternoon pon we went there since we had late lunch at Nasi Ayam Kg Hassan. and since Charles&Keith is having its opening on 1st of May, just thought of dropping by a little while to visit my two cousins ni kikiki. and at the end, i ended up spending one shoes, but of course, for work purpose k..but seriously, lately i think i've been spending too much on shoes and clothes. i better start watching before my old habit datang balik.
To Teh, if you want to take a look at the dress that i bought for Arissa, i am posting it below. Sorry for the bad quality pix. Can't wait to see my baby tomato in this dress
Monday, April 27, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Not many of us noticed how fast the time flies.
Yesterday it was 2008 and today its 2009.
Yesterday we were laughing happily and today we frown and sad.
Yesterday the sun shone brightly and today the rain is just so impatient to pour.
Yesterday remains as memories and today we'll craft more memories to be cherished in the future.
But many of us may have noticed that when you feel the time is limited, you'll get to see, to feel, to appreciate all the things that you're going to loose. yes, it may break your heart painfully, but always, think carefully before you let go.
time is so cruel, letting all the good things go in a split second.but you can't change the fact that time will continue ticking..So appreciate and cherish whatever you have around you now while you have time before it's too late.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Mraz was not disappointing us. Even though i didn't know most of his songs, but at least, we can sing along the song Remedy, You and I, Geek in the pink, I'm yours and Lucky. But a little dissapoinment was the duration of the concert. It was too short. It didnt even reach 2 hours. hurmm..
Okay, the best part during the concert was when he was asking the crowd before he sang one of the songs.
"Who here came to this concert with a best friend?"
Then, the crowd was cheering out loud and then he asked again.
"Who here, came to this concert with a best friend, because he/she is crazy in love with the best friend?"
Then the crowd was cheering even louder. So sweet kan ;-) but i couldnt even raise my hand because i came with my siblings. :p they sang the song "Lucky" almost towards the end of the concert. but i hate the Colbie's substitute. rosak lagu je! hurmm..
hehe if only i could meet him in person that night!
anyway, some pictures to share with you during the concert..enjoy k
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Bunga Citra Lestari - Aku Tak Mau Sendiri
Sejak ia pergi dari hidupku
Kau tinggalkan ku sendiri disini
Tanpa satu yang pasti
Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Kirim aku malaikatmu
Biar jadi kawan hidupku
Dan tunjukkan jalan yang memang
Kau pilihkan untukku
Kirim aku malaikatmu
Karena ku sepi berada disini
Dan didunia ini aku tak mau sendiri
Tanpa terasa kuteteskan air mata
Yang tiada berhenti mengiringi
Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
my say, life has to move on. and whatever happens in life and if u are able to face it, it'll make you even stronger than before. i've learnt something during my absence.that no matter how big the problem is, you can't just run. it will not solve. the key word is, talk, discuss, plan and decide. i think that would be the best thing for you to do. but remember, if it involves decision with more than one party, it has to be mutually agreed.
the reason for this post is just to highlight on my comeback. he he he. and also to convey to you that you guys should go and watch the movie Curious case of benjamin button, starred by adorable Pitt and lovely Blanchett, if u havent done so.
It was indeed a very inspiring, well at least, it did bring good impact on myself. knowing me as a soft-hearted (does everyone agree?), this is the second movie that made me dropped my tears in cinema.so embarrasing.:p
there are few take aways (sayings) which i managed to copy from benjamin's diary. i just feel like sharing it out with everyone here. Those are my favourite quotes :)
"You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."
"We were meant to lose people. How else would we know how important they are?"
"For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, start whenever you want, you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
All of the above quotes, did teach me on accepting God's will, and to appreciate whatever things that happened surround u, to evaluate the cause and effects properly, to plan ahead based on the evaluation, before you made any decision further. At least,by doing that, you have tried and worked to achieve things that you wanted.
But, if He has planned what's gonna happen in your life, no matter how big your effort is, if He doesnt agree with what you desired, you'll just have to accept it. You'll have to learn to let go.
I admit..letting go is not one of my strengths, especially if you have demanded things that you want to be your way. but i have learnt throughout my silence that, if you keep on letting it to haunt your life, it will keep on hurting u, killing u inside. In my pray, i hope to be the strongest. Even i do believe the strongest have the fatigue moment and needed help, but I'll just have to move on and proceed with my usual life.
Now im starting to believing in how life works. You can travel around the world across the time and universe, but if it meant to be yours, at the end, it'll be yours. So, enjoy life while u can.
Morale of the post is "Go watch Benjamin Button while stocks last. I am willing to be your movie partner coz I'm dying to watch it again even it eats up my 3 hours of my leisure time ;-)"
Sunday, February 8, 2009
meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku
dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja
I've always been impressed with weddings, impressed with how the couples kept their love blooming all the time and ended up with wonderful marriage. The happiness clearly shown on their face during akad, and i am always amazed with the sincerity of the bride and groom's expression. It did touch my heart, and i cried when the groom had successfully done with the solemnization, and from that moment, my best friend, has been legally married to Mr Al Ala Fil. I dont have any pictures yet since i need to copy from most of girl friends. I'll upload as soon as i got from them.
Don't think i never imagine on how my weddings would be. I've always been thinking about that. I want it to be full of love. I want it to be earnest, truthful, and both the bride and groom must enjoy the moment and enter the marriage life with sincerity. I've always dreamt of that. :-(
The reception, was held the next day, 7th Feb 09, and it was beautifully held in Dewan Tun Rahah, KL. From the way i look at it, i would like to extend my greatest "Bravo" wish to her 4 sisters, they are so bonded together and they worked so hard just to ensure her beloved "cheche"'s event run smoothly. All the moments inside the hall was like so memorable, with the songs sang by angelic voice, Zaza and songs that being played, until i cried during the rehearsal when they played that one particular song. :( i'm sorry, its just my mood lately been swinging like crazy. and every little thing surrounded me did bring emotional part of myself. but i tried my best to stay calm and happy on that night.
What was my role? Me being the dearest bridesmaid for the night :) well, lynn i hope i did a great job. It was lovely and i am soo proud to be your bridesmaid. Even though part of my "kain" nearly burned because of the candle on the stage :P. takut giler i buat scene tadi coz kain terkena candle. huhuhuhu. People around me kept saying that if you be the bridesmaid, you're not gonna marry any time soon. Betul ke???
The only pictures that i have are from my sister's and couzy's cameras. Once i obtained all, I'll share again with all of you. At least, i want to showcase how beautiful the bride is, and not to forget the groom :P
To Lynn and Al, Congratulations again. I wish you have wonderful life after this and bring out great and cute kids! Nanti Auntie Ilah bwk jln2. Al, please take care of lynn elok2 ya ;)
p/s: sorry for the bad quality photos. kitorang ambik pakai camera biasa aje. nanti kita collect from photographers yer..
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
I'm learning to catch back the glimpse of myself which has lost on its way coming back. .
I'm learning to go back to the reality and leave all the fantasy behind. .
I'm learning to let go and let things go on its own way . .
I'm learning to accept the fate determined by Him and be thankful with everything that had happened. .
I'm learning to live again . . .
Monday, February 2, 2009
A good friend of mine gave it to me few months ago. This friend of mine, however, didnt want the name to be revealed, yet. so i'll keep it discreet for now kay,
As what been said, Milah will always be by my side whenever i feel down. She will be my company through good and bad times..and even if i felt lonely and no one is around, Milah will always be my best friend..
Thanks so much to you, dear..and thanks so much for making me rise again when i was really, really down... and i know, with your wonderful kindness, you're gonna be happy in your life too later..and i'll always be around whenever u need me too ;-)
We'll always be best friends kan??
Nitey nite . . .
to nieja. sorry la thought u were in ipoh at that time..tok ajok..kikikikik
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
can't believe if you have no friends in this world? to me, i'm glad im surrounded with beautiful and lovely friends. some of them still around, like, being there when u called, and some, who may have other responsibilities, marriage life, etc, are no longer touching base with you. im scared knowing the fact that we might lose some of your friends when they are in different league ( u know what i mean). but, that's the facts of life. even if u are scared, you'll still have to face it, right. and then we will keep on reinventing the wheel, make new friends as long as you live your life.
but deep in my heart, i'm just hoping that i will not lose all of my em. to whoever reading this, i just want you to know that your presence in my life is solely appreciated and the moments that we spent will always be cherished in my heart. i just hope that most of you will still be there even we have embarked to a new journey in our life sooner or later . .
to some of you who havent heard of this song that im currently listening, here's the wonderful lyrics, and click on the linkbelow to listen to this song .
i love you guys . . .
And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember ...
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember ..