I got little mixed up for the past few weeks. too much pressure coming on me, esp work. I don't know how to cope with it anymore, and i can't be telling too much info over here. the truth is, i feel like changing the environment, and im craving for that. but i dont do much actions from my end yet, which really frustrated my ownself. at one point of time, i feel like quitting, and live my life to be a housewife. but i am not sure that would be the path im planning to take at this junction. seems like a lot of things yet to achieve yet, and at the age of 27, u should still be focusing and charting your career.
when the pressure gets too high, I can turn easily into somebody, moody, and not the usual cheerful myself. and there could be an occasion where i might offend or hurt people around me. my sanity and rationale was not intact. for that, i seek for forgiveness to some of you who might feel offended..
talking about this, it's a bit sad if the purpose of friendship is being judged. maybe it was all rooted by a tense situation, but I am not blaming anyone, and perhaps i was the one who caused the tension. i don't want to force the situation, but my hope is, things will go back the way it used to be :( , back to the state where we could smile and laugh naturally..InsyaAllah
and to end this note, here i am alone in my room. Hubby left to Bintulu again due to work commitments, and hasn't received any calls from him lately ever since he got on board to offshore. pretty weird, perhaps the communication line got cut off again. whatever it is, i'll pray that he'll be safe and hope to hear some news from him soon.:( i hope i could gather all my strengths and patience..
to ease my sorrow for tonight, i looked for a song that can ease and comfort myself. such a nice song from Wali band..enjoy guys..nite2