*Two Thousand Nine*

Hello April,

It's been 4 months since we entered 2010, and this marks 4 months i've been in the marriage life. Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life..

We've all known this fact, so you must never miss the opportunity to tell all of these people, how much they mean to you. Apa artinya aku tanpa kalian. he he .

I've been meaning to write this entry since then..to welcome 2010, to welcome new life, and new journey. I must admit, for me to sail through the coming chapters in life, I still need my lovely people surrounding me, and over here I'd want to convey how much i cherish most of you for always being around me..

Recapping 2009, many remarkable events happened in everyone's life. .which i feel like listing some of em below.Sorry kalau i ada termiss any important event, if you found any, pls remind me.

February 2009

The month my best friend became Al Ala Fil's soul partner.

May 2009

The month my other best friend ended his single life. (Sorry takde gambar)

and also..

The month when me and my girls went for an amazing trip to Jakarta together (Rinduuunyaaaa,,, Ke sana lagi Yuk!)

June 2009

The month my lovely and cheeky niece came to the earth, Qaseh Mia Irdeena. Qaseh is now a big girl..:)

and not forgetting..

The month Lola was brought to home..:D

October 2009

The month my best friend finally locked Maliki in her heart.

November 2009

The month Allah has blessed our family again with Mummy's and Papa's 2nd grandson, Ezran Khaleef.

December 2009

The month my best friend finally tied the knot with her knight in shining armor, Rahman

and last but not least.. the month i became the bride, and married to Azzril Zolhaili.

Hope I will be blessed in everything that I do for this year..

. . .

sekadar gambar hiasan :P

We walked again
in the midst of roadworks
and clamour. You, ill with
virus and fever in the strong light

Our fingers touched
again and again and in
the end you held them

I feel my heart sing.

Quoted from "The Book of Sins"

What do you want me to write in my blog?

Apa agak2nya ya??

Well, i've already had some ideas in the pipeline..perhaps i'll be updating some this weekend. Hopefully :-)

and yes.. I'm still alive :)

Surprise....

O' dear.

Not sure how many comebacks i've made in my very own blog. i am terribly sorry if i did promise some of you to provide some updates on certain stuffs, but one thing for sure is that, i' shall not be writing as regular as before. i had greater commitments in real world as compared to the virtual world (minus the fact that i work with computers and virtual world 8-5 monday to friday). lame excuse, but i guess that's the only reason i have in mind. So, my promise to you, i'll try to keep you updated on whatever postings which i love to share, whenever i really have time.

Loads of things happened from November 09 to date. there were times when i felt i was at the loose edge, due to various factors. personal.career.conflicts.etc. then as normal human being, we'll get up again, and try hard to move on.

The biggest turning point was of course the change of my status, from a girl to a woman, an event which has turned my life to a remarkable degree, in which to be exact, from 'single' to 'married', the one and only career that requires lifetime commitment ;-)

well, i don't intend to blab so much in this post. the initial intention was just a brief & short. I will tell more stories in the next one.

and to conclude, yes, i am still alive and kicking. i am still the same Ilah as before. no matter how life has turned me, it has always been the same me. life is always unpredictable. but if you're intelligent enough to handle it, you'll go through it. see you in the next post dear.*hugs*

why can't i have more time in this world??

too many things happened recently. i miss expressing everything in this blog. :( gonna make a comeback soon.

It's the 'Raya Routine' that i miss ~ ;-)

It's the last day of Ramadhan. It is such a sad moment that Ramadhan is leaving us so soon. Can't believe how fast time flies. I've set in mind earlier that i'd like to post something before i actually go off for Hari Raya leave.

This year its gonna be different, we going to celebrate this festive with two new members in the family, El, my sister in law and my beautiful niece, Qaseh. I'm glad and proud to be born as Kelantanese. knowing that the celebration there will be as joyful as always, the traditions have never faded. I'd like to share with all of you on how raya actually went for our family..

Malam raya, would be the most awaited moment. On that night alone, most of my uncles and aunties from various states will arrive, and all the couzies will be busy playing with the firecrackers. And malam tu jugak lah, baru la my mom, my aunts, kalut2 nak kemas rumah..nak ambik baju raya from tailor.. hi hi, i miss those moment. and yang paling my mom marah, if on that night itself, me and my cousin mirna baru nak start buat kuih raya. (cornflake madu je, picked the easiest one) kah kah kah. It has always been a trend, that we will sleep close to 5 am on malam raya. biasa lah, bila jumpa all the relatives, kelab ketupat will be officially launched again :p

Next day, the most peaceful morning, each of us would be awaken around approximately 7 am, by the sound of banging on our door. That would be our beloved father,a.ka Tn Haji (;p) waking us up for Solat Hari Raya and the trend has been like that since I was little kid, i guess. hi hi. The advantage would be to those yang uzur, hehe, tak payah siap cepat2..

Our open house will be held on the third day. My mom would prepare her best dish for the open house, and on this particular event itself, i think i can gain more than 2 kgs immediately. scary..ni yang kena ambik herbalife balik ni. and the fourth day would be filled by visiting uncles, relatives's house etc. time ni makan giler banyak lagi..adoiii...

Well, let's see if this routine is gonna be repeated this year. I'll tell you once this week is over, k ;-)

I am actually writing this post in conjuction with reminiscing our late datuk and nenek, my late uncles (dad's side), Muhaimi Abas, Mohd Khairuddin Ab Rahman as well as my late uncle and his wife (mum's side), Azlan Shah Mamat and Siti Hasmah who have left us for the past few years. Your absence in this world are truly felt by all of us. Your soul are still warm in our heart and will always be, especially during this blessed Syawal, and we shall never forget you..May Allah bless you and rest in peace.

To the rest, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, and saya nak mintak maaf banyak2 andai kata ada salah dan silap, humans are not perfect, we can't run away from mistakes. So, 0-0 lah yer ;-)

:~~(

My Qaseh ..

a picture of qaseh on the first day she came to the earth. Welcome to the earth baby..;-) love you sooo much

i may have promised some of you to share the pics of my first and foremost cutest creature, my one and only niece thus far, Qaseh Mia Irdeena bt Nazarudin, daugter of my elder sister, Et and her hubby, Naza.
She was born on 12th June 09, 11.02 A.M, 5 days after my birthday. boleh celebrate birthday sama2 :-)

ndek...i miss Qaseh already


above: qaseh with mummy

above: qaseh on the way for injection . cian "acheh" :p

above: qaseh doing her pose ;-)

above: qaseh with tanter ilah

i got no title for this post.

i am deeply hurt over what had happened for the last two days

i am a normal human being, whose feeling need to be taken care, if not as a whole, at least, a little mercy and piece of comfort would be sufficient.

i seek for His blessings to always calm me down, not to turn me into a bad girl, not to let me to live with such weird feelings, :-(

i'll always pray for it happiness.

InsyaAllah.

Bagiku, Sungai Nil dan Mesir itu jodoh...

I was on a business trip for the last two weeks, been wanting to write this post since then, but knowing the limited time that i have in my hand, always hindering me from posting sthing in my blog.

masa duduk dalam bilik and takde apa nak buat, the only thing that i could do was to watch tv show. luckily tv3 rerun the indonesia movie ayat-ayat cinta. i thought all these while movie ni macam movie biasa, or another boring movie, coz masa tengok last time i watched it in the middle. but i do heard from few friends that it was the best romantic islamic movie by Indonesia.

Saya akui, it is indeed a novel and film which made me realize how close the relationship between humans and the Creator. cukup berlinangan and memberi impak..

Cerita ini buat saya terfikir..bahawa sesungguhnya antara saya - kamu - mereka dan TUHAN yang mengikatnya adalah CINTA. Dan erti sesungguhnya tentang CINTA adalah ikhlas dan sabar.Itu saja.

Bahawa apapun dan bagaimanapun sebuah ketulusan akan diuji. Dan melalui kesabaran hingga pada suatu titik keikhlasan yang datang dari hati - maka seketika segalanya akan dimudahkan oleh Nya.

Berbahas tentang JODOH...
Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap manusia telah ada jodohnya masing-masing. Yang paling menggetarkan adalah di mana ketika kita dihadapkan terhadap dua pilihan untuk harus melepaskan orang yang kita cintai kerana ada hal lain yang lebih penting untuk dipertahankan.. atau merelakan orang yang kita cintai untuk menjadi milik orang lain.

Cinta - tidak semuanya harus saling memiliki. Ketika kita sedar antara cinta dan obsesi sebuah rasa untuk memiliki adalah dua hal yang berbeza maka disanalah ilmu ikhlas dan sabar berperanan penuh.

Semuanya yang berliku kerana di sanalah art of life, sebagaimana kita berserah dan sebagaimana kita memohon pada Yang Maha Esa maka sebegitu jualah yang akan di Beri. Sekali lagi cinta adalah Ikhlas dan sabar. Untuk siapapun itu Sang Pencipta, ibu bapa ,keluarga, sahabat, dan pasangan jiwa.

Saya jatuh cinta dengan ungkapan Maria dan Fahri in that movie...

“Kamu percaya pada jodoh Fahri?”

“Ya, setiap orang memiliki…”

“…jodohnya masing-masing. Itu yang selalu kamu bilang. Aku rasa Sungai Nil dan Mesir, itu jodoh. Senang ya, kalau kita bisa bertemu dengan jodoh yang diberikan Tuhan dari langit.”

“Bukan dari langit Maria, tapi dari hati…dekat sekali.”

such a wonderful script written by the writer and made me think deep...

Sempena Ramadan yang mulia ini, i hope it is not too late for me to apologize to all for any of my wrong doings throughout the years you've known me , which might unintentionally hurt any of you.

Happy blessed Ramadan.. Semoga di bulan yang mulia ini kita dapat mencari keberkatan.

Amin.